12/15/2025

It's been 6 days…

I move quickly

Trying not to see or smell

If I move fast enough I can pretend nothing is happening

I’m tired…

It's hard to pretend

My body is heavy

My breathing is so heavy

The sharp cramps trigger it…

the plague

The smell is hard to ignore

Strong smell of Iodine

And blood…

Day 6 smells like i’m rotting…

Like carneceria drains…

It’s black. Real black…

Like charcoal

It's really plague…

Chunks, of… me

It's so much…

I couldn’t help it

The nausea didn’t surprise me

Before I could catch it the vomit comes spewing out on the bathroom floor

I’m disgusting

It's poison

I’m infected

I’m dirty….

The contractions trigger pain

But I can’t stop gauging

I can’t breathe

Nothing is coming out

But nothing is going in

I try to wash it off

I scrub until the skin feels new

Hoping the hot water cleanses me

It never does…

Why would it now?

Just set it on fire